so heres the recent scoop:
parents went out of town to hawaii for 2 weeks. during that time, we had NO PARTIES, NO ORGIES, NOTHING!!!!! except!: a chip in the kitchen wall (my fault, my temper once again) and a mile on the odometer on my stepmoms car (liams fault cause hes an idiot teen, no biggie). they grill us the day they come back on that mile, liam finally fesses up after i fess up that he did it. he gets vindictive and rats me out for the hole (i had bought spackle, spackled, sanded, and painted the "hole". after doing this, i informed him that i intended to tell laura about it when the 2 dumbasses that my dad and brother are were both gone) so we all get nearly thrown out. and now laura is giving me and liam the silent treatment. still.
this happened on sunday. it is now thursday. i'll be fucking shocked if she says anything on thanksgiving for fucks sake.
so now im desperate to leave and doing everything in my power to avoid her at all costs, cause all she does is sit there and look neutral. she has said 3 words to liam all week, and anything she says to me has been completely forced, including the obviously-insincere "thanks" she gave me when i asked if she needed anything from the store today before i left. i dont even know why im telling this to the whole fucking internet, apparently venting it to the therapist next door, who thinks laura is being strict in all this, btw, wasnt enough for me. im sick of this fucking house, honestly am. thanksgiving day comes, im thankful for my food and my friends. my family gets nothing.
oh yes, im grateful for my vengeful brother, who rats me out even though he knows im gonna rat myself out when dumb and dumber arent around to get in the damn way. im grateful for my shallow stepmom, who, even now, is still giving me the cold shoulder for something that wouldve cost her $100 or so to have some professional do it and still make it look like shit anyway. and im thankful for my asshole dad, who, when laura kicks me out originally, drags himself and liam in and gets both of them nearly kicked out, and then blames it on liam.
and so, for benedict liam, yoko ono, and the world record for largest mouth ever (it has recently outgrown the howe caverns in catskill), i am grateful.
what am i truly grateful for? im grateful for every meal thats placed in front of me, everyday, unfailingly. im grateful for the gift God has given me of creativity and a love of painting, the ability to smear pigments onto a piece of cloth and end up with a genuine piece of my soul. and im grateful for all the friends who have contributed to my life in any way, within reach and over long distances. for these things, i am truly thankful to God. happy thanksgiving, guys, sorry for the rant.